(BTW, we just got back from a great trip to the beach so I interrupt this blog to post some pics of my cutie family!!)
Oh wait...the title of the post. So on the way to the beach, we had to take two cars because my brother and nephew came and the ultra cool minivan only held 6 people plus ALL THE STUFF and I drove the car with Maddie and ALL THE REST OF THE STUFF. Mads brought her ukulele and she played (the 4 chords she knows) and I sang...not well at all. We recorded and it's SO embarrassing, I didn't even post...and I post LOTS of embarrassing stuff. Anyways, we tried really hard on Over the Rainbow, but still...no one wants to hear it. As I was singing, I kept thinking of Korea...that there was a place that I longed to be...it really was a dream come true to visit. Sometimes it seems like a dream, that it never happened.
Now, back to the issues.
Lots of people who haven't seen me recently ask me about my trip. With school starting Wednesday (WHAT????), I'm sure lots more people will ask. The answer that I keep coming up with is that I miss it...that I want to go back...that I wish it was more accessible and that I could visit when I felt the urge to...which would probably be every few months at least. Yes, every day I check my email several times a day, and even though I may not be thinking of it directly, I'm a bit sad that the adoption agency hasn't contacted me that my biological mom has contacted them. I recently took a DNA test and sent it in. I got the 23 and me test for a good deal on Prime Day, but then got offered a free test, but now I'm hearing that 23 and me was probably a better test (with a bigger pool) so maybe I'll still try that one. It should be 3-4 weeks before I get results. I don't even know what kind of results to except so we'll see.
In the meantime, I've joined a few FB groups...Korean American Adoptees, Houston KADS, and Instant Pot Community (ooooh yes, I LOVE my instant pot...see pics...yum!!). It's quite eye opening, and tonight, I found a few really interesting posts...about adoptees, that is.
First, was an article about a flight of 155 babies that came over on a flight thru Holt. That's amazing! So there's a spreadsheet for people to fill out to see if they can find travel buddies.It was fun to read all the people's names and a brief story and continue to realize that I'm really not alone in my experience.
Next (and I was JUST talking to someone about this the other day) was an entire post about SWEAT and EARWAX!
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And then to read the thread/comments...everyone sounded like me. "wore it once", "never wear it", "don't need to".... So in case anyone wants to know (or even if you don't), I have a bar of Ban Clear that I've had since middle school. I never wear it, except I used to wear it before a concert (when I started teaching) because it smelled so good and it was kinda like "dressing up". HAHAHA. Also, I usually shave at least twice a year, and I realized the other day that I didn't even shave on my special 40th birthday!! I also used to before my Christmas concert...but I didn't last year so it's probably been over a year? Yeah, I don't have amazing hair (on my head), but I have amazingly slooooow growing, smooth and pretty much unnoticeable hair on my legs.
There are always posts like ...
these are posts that don't show up on my regular FB feed. It's VERY cool, and I feel connected to all these people I don't even know. The other day, a girl wrote a very emotional post. She talked about how every year on her birthday, she and her mom celebrate this very special day, but how over the past two years, she has learned that many adoptees do not have this wonderful experience with adoption and how these groups have opened her eyes to understand more about adoption/adoption experience. She went on to say that she does not feel differently about her mom at all...just realizes there's more out there to learn about and to feel and to get in touch with. That's how I've been feeling since I took my trip. Looking forward to meeting the Houston KADS.
Well, sorry for the TMI in this post (but generally my writing is filled with TMI, so you're probably used to it if you've gotten this far).
Thanks for the continued support of my journey!!!
